didn't think it'd be this soon that this blog would be filled with my nagging and personal, non-public reflections or, to be more correct and simple still, are things that I can't speak up (though this blogger thingy isn't actually all that non-public! oh well!). currently, as I am typing on this post, I am supposed to do my geography assignment (damn!), but I couldn't focus because there are things that has been bothering me and it HAS to come out of my system before I can concentrate on my assignment.
it has always been difficult to me to meet and get along well with not just the people I just met, but also people who are older than me, especially male. those shy and unfriendly aura (that's what i think of), along with the quiet, cool and humble act usually feigned on people when they met someone new or out of respect, that I emit seems to signify me as an introvert and nerdy guy (which i assume would be partially correct). the specific reason i do not know but I think this is because of the whole respect-older-people deal and first impression. I was just trying to make a better impression of people on me so that they would not think that I am this crazy and noisy guy, that actually i prefer better and that is what i am to people i know very well of and close to. but as I reflect again, its not that I do not want to be what i like to be, I just can not be what I want to be in front of "those" people. (I'll start typing "those" if i want to mention acquintance or older people).
to drift away a little bit, i consider myself as a person who prioritize other people's feeling than myself (well, this is what i think, i do not know how others feel about me), for example, i would rather sulk and weep to let others have it the way they want rather than them hating me for choosing things i like that they don't; this might be for things as simple as sitting position or walking orders.
anyway, what other people think of you might not as be a big deal to many people. but for me it is. that is why i mentioned it here....
(this is the draft that I was gonna publish as soon as I finished it. However, it was like 3 months ago and I had forgotten what I wanted to write, rather than just dumping it away, I'll post it now. Its actually about the difficulty in interacting with other people who are brand new to you!)
Monday, December 4, 2006
Friday, December 1, 2006
Real Madrid
nothing interesting going on, just posting for the sake of updates to my "tag-fans" (T_T).
snow shower has ended. and its not gonna happen anymore anytime this year, which is sort of not fun because we wont see any white christmas, not to mention the "school holiday" that we are going to miss. but o well. apparently, the precipitation this month has been the largest since 1933. wohoo.. that's 73 years!
anyway, its been a normal week. no incident whatsoever, no surprises whatsoever. kinda boring isn't it? i was hoping there'd be more "something" to fill my spare time.
o i know, i can talk about real madrid in this post. if anyone ever cares. i know i do, though.
till this day, they are the most successful football club ever. i'm not gonna list the trophies and achievements they have won, cuz it'd be too long. however, these past 3 years, it seems that luck has gone afar from their sight. they are having trophies drought. and it is a "no no" for a club of that magnitude.
IMO, well... obviously, this is partly due to the 'Galacticos Policy' since the reigning of Florentino Perez. During his first year alone, he brought the so-called Judas (by Barcelona Fans) namely Luis Figo and his transfer broke the world's transfer market record of being the highest of all time. Then came along big known names like Zinedine Zidane (his transfer broke Figo's previous record and its the all time high, even until now!), Ronaldo Luiz Nazario da Lima, David Beckham!
Although there are opposition to the doctrine that Perez has, during the first few years of his reign, the signings has taken its positive effect, Madrid won trophies, became the highest income earner, and became the best club ever! Then came in the incident of firing Vicente Del Bosque. This IMO, is the most crucial factor of the downfall of the Real Madrid era. The expulsion of Del Bosque was unthinkable because he won 3 trophies that year alone - Spanish La Liga and two more that I couldn't remember - and logically speaking, that is a good result. After that is the worst 3 years for the Galacticos.
Now, with Ramon Calderon and Capello in charge, Real Madrid is turning into a real challenger again. Players that are useless are benched and released. Then, champions such as Cannavaro, Emerson, Diarra, Ruud Van Nistelrooy, and Reyes are recruited. Youth players namely Robinho, Ramos, De la Red, Nieto and Mata are being given experience to play. Positive results are coming in and according to realmadrid.com, history is repeating itself like 10 years ago where Capello was in charge for the first time. And that year Real Madrid won the La Liga. Hopefully, history IS repeating itself and is even better than last time. My hope is high this year with Capello in charge and the system changed. Not to mention three Latin players that are predicted to come this January Transfer. (One had been successfully recruited: Marcelo, the other 2 are in progress and is supposedly to come: Gago and Higuain)
snow shower has ended. and its not gonna happen anymore anytime this year, which is sort of not fun because we wont see any white christmas, not to mention the "school holiday" that we are going to miss. but o well. apparently, the precipitation this month has been the largest since 1933. wohoo.. that's 73 years!
anyway, its been a normal week. no incident whatsoever, no surprises whatsoever. kinda boring isn't it? i was hoping there'd be more "something" to fill my spare time.
o i know, i can talk about real madrid in this post. if anyone ever cares. i know i do, though.
till this day, they are the most successful football club ever. i'm not gonna list the trophies and achievements they have won, cuz it'd be too long. however, these past 3 years, it seems that luck has gone afar from their sight. they are having trophies drought. and it is a "no no" for a club of that magnitude.
IMO, well... obviously, this is partly due to the 'Galacticos Policy' since the reigning of Florentino Perez. During his first year alone, he brought the so-called Judas (by Barcelona Fans) namely Luis Figo and his transfer broke the world's transfer market record of being the highest of all time. Then came along big known names like Zinedine Zidane (his transfer broke Figo's previous record and its the all time high, even until now!), Ronaldo Luiz Nazario da Lima, David Beckham!
Although there are opposition to the doctrine that Perez has, during the first few years of his reign, the signings has taken its positive effect, Madrid won trophies, became the highest income earner, and became the best club ever! Then came in the incident of firing Vicente Del Bosque. This IMO, is the most crucial factor of the downfall of the Real Madrid era. The expulsion of Del Bosque was unthinkable because he won 3 trophies that year alone - Spanish La Liga and two more that I couldn't remember - and logically speaking, that is a good result. After that is the worst 3 years for the Galacticos.
Now, with Ramon Calderon and Capello in charge, Real Madrid is turning into a real challenger again. Players that are useless are benched and released. Then, champions such as Cannavaro, Emerson, Diarra, Ruud Van Nistelrooy, and Reyes are recruited. Youth players namely Robinho, Ramos, De la Red, Nieto and Mata are being given experience to play. Positive results are coming in and according to realmadrid.com, history is repeating itself like 10 years ago where Capello was in charge for the first time. And that year Real Madrid won the La Liga. Hopefully, history IS repeating itself and is even better than last time. My hope is high this year with Capello in charge and the system changed. Not to mention three Latin players that are predicted to come this January Transfer. (One had been successfully recruited: Marcelo, the other 2 are in progress and is supposedly to come: Gago and Higuain)
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
all the "right" reasons
nothing's really going on today. i just wanna post my disappointment for making the decision not to apply to UC Berkeley! i wouldn't wanna brag about how i would potentially have a chance to be accepted to berkeley and refused to do it because i do not have enough information about it, cuz that would be a total bull and just a piece of shitty arrogance coming out of my mouth (but that was the excuse i told ppl today). that is probably ( i am not even sure why the hell did i give such reason) just a cover-up for not applying to prevent the downfall of my pride from happening later if my application to Berkeley was declined, which i'm pretty sure would be the case. i don't know.
yesterday, actually there's this girl, Miyuki (whom I coincidentally just met), who asked me again if Architecture (my intended major currently) is really my passion. that question seems like a god-send to me because: (1.)I just met her and (2.)the many times i heard the question again from myself or even from other people, it always dumbstrucks and shooks me hard in the head and heart because, honestly, i don't have the answer myself. is this God's way of asking me,
"Are you sure this is what you want to do? your passion? your desire?"
"Well, I DON'T KNOW!"
a childish answer I must say. but, considering that i always liked designing stuffs and drawing, i presumed that this might be the right thing for me. but how do you actually sense a right or wrong choice you have made? you wouldn't know the answer to this before you got the result of your choice. and that... wow I drifted too far.
i know i want to take something which majors in art but not limited to art and that is why i feel architecture is for me. another thing is the big bucks that we'd be paid for being one. moreover, i also had ambitions about having my architectural buildings decorating the horizon of the biggest cities in the world. all the "right" reasons.
yesterday, actually there's this girl, Miyuki (whom I coincidentally just met), who asked me again if Architecture (my intended major currently) is really my passion. that question seems like a god-send to me because: (1.)I just met her and (2.)the many times i heard the question again from myself or even from other people, it always dumbstrucks and shooks me hard in the head and heart because, honestly, i don't have the answer myself. is this God's way of asking me,
"Are you sure this is what you want to do? your passion? your desire?"
"Well, I DON'T KNOW!"
a childish answer I must say. but, considering that i always liked designing stuffs and drawing, i presumed that this might be the right thing for me. but how do you actually sense a right or wrong choice you have made? you wouldn't know the answer to this before you got the result of your choice. and that... wow I drifted too far.
i know i want to take something which majors in art but not limited to art and that is why i feel architecture is for me. another thing is the big bucks that we'd be paid for being one. moreover, i also had ambitions about having my architectural buildings decorating the horizon of the biggest cities in the world. all the "right" reasons.
Monday, November 27, 2006
as a start..
at last... my own blog! not that (having a blog) was my longing desire or anything. lol. its this cousin of mine that's pushing me upon making one, and here it is. lol. and it seems fun too.. so.. there's no harm in making one. lol. ya ngga tel? :p
well. that's my remark for my first blog! lol.
o yea.. Seattle's been snowing for the past 2 days. first day was fun. today.. not so much. buses were out of service due to the slippery roads, so I had to walk and my feet was all wet! damn!
well. that's my remark for my first blog! lol.
o yea.. Seattle's been snowing for the past 2 days. first day was fun. today.. not so much. buses were out of service due to the slippery roads, so I had to walk and my feet was all wet! damn!
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