Its been 3 months

First post in 2007. In just 3 months, I can officially conclude 2007 as the toughest, most complicated, yet most interesting year mentally, spiritually, and physically. Well not so much physically; just for the sake of completing the typical 3-set of conditions.

Everything in 2007 just kicks off like crazy: People around started leaving like leaves falling off in the fall season, Portfolio deadlines are starting to catch up (some had even passed *uh.. oh*), and I had other mental issues (not some 'crazy' kind of mental problems cause I'm still definitely sane!).

First, it was Jemima (though she still visits often, like OFTEN ^^), Ko Herman, Ko Budi, C TheThi , Ko Andi, then now C Yoshe. Its like there is this magnetic repulsion that suddenly changes the whole gravitational field around the church that those people were repelled one by one away. Its so heartwrenching to see everyone leaves and this is not gonna stop anytime soon.

Next is the portfolio deadline that is coming ever faster. Time flies so fast, that three months has disappeared in one blink of an eye. Three months ago I was like, "OH. Ntar aja C, masih May koq duenya." And Now I was like, "OH Shit! two months and I still am 70% away from completion." And thats only for UW application, which is the latest of all the deadlines. Some 'Uni''s deadline had passed and some is reaching soon. Damn that Portfolio Requirement!

Lastly is this mental clash thats been on my mind. One part of the brain says this way and the other part says another way. Its like those little Angels vs. Devils scene in movies that suddenly popped out of nowhere and started arguing in your mind. I don't know what to do. No, actually, I know what is the right thing to do, but I just can't do it. Its not that I don't want to do the right thing, its just the thought or the knowlege that there isn't a way to get back to the right track that hindered me from doing what society (even r) accepted as right. Is it really wrong?

Anyway, yeah! Its been a heck of a lot that has been going on around. I just hope that all this matters is gonna stop pouring down and the heavy clouds starts to step aside allowing the sun to shine. Seattle is trying hard to do that. And these problems hopefully will work hard on it too.